((((((Cece)))))))
Your feeling everything, exactly as you should.
Recovery doesn't happen overnight. For anyone.
I still find myself, once in a while, falling back to step 1.
Heck! There are people who've been in recovery for many, many years, that
still have to button down the hatch, when a big wave of relapse hits.
It's normal and natural. Your doing fine.
Prayers from me to you,
Linda