Thank you all so very much for your replies. It helps so much to know that you all are here and care.
I have to admit that once I stepped outside for a while and tried to forget MY problem, I felt much better. I went to my mother in laws and visited. Amazing how anothers problems make your seem small.
I analized the reason I don't want to speak to Dad and that is simple. I am so very weary. Weary of the pain and the anxiety that I have to stop listening. Now I have to start praying (harder). And more often. God will handle it however he choses. Dad will either listen or not. I love him just the same.
Thank you again!
Lolly