So tonight is the first time that my BF will have to put himself to the test with drugs since he has been sober. For those of you that don’t know my history, he’s a DJ and unforutantely drugs run rampid in the club scene. I am already starting to get all nervous about it.
So I come to you all for advice. Do you think it would just be better for me not to go tonight? Just tell him I’m not up for it. God, I want to just be evil and tell him, I don’t want to go because I am afraid that you’re going to slip and I don’t want to be there to see it. Is that wrong? My only fear is that I’m just going to sit at home and worry until he comes home. Part of me wants to go, see if he does it at least that way I just get the disappointment over with.
I wish I could believe him when he says he wants to stay sober.
