32 days
32 days sober for me YAY
ah the emotional rollercoaster- what a ride- and a suprise i had no clue it would be like this- didnt hit me til the 30th day.
then BAMM outta no where
im up im down im mad im sad im glad im scared im happy im freaking out! LOL
okay im assuming its a result of the numbing ive done for so many years. i get that part
the other part i dont get is Now what?
Ive been resisting meetings
i havent gone to one yet since stopping this time.
i went a long long time ago
and never went back
i was overwhelmed by the people that came up to me, and one woman in particular- she said AA would now be my life- which freaked me right out
there must be a happy middle, right?
does AA have to be my life now?
man oh man im confused
send help lol
sober hugs
maria