I've known him for about 2 1/2 years now. I do trust him I just wouldn't want to put any kind of burdon on him with such a responsibility.
I mean I'm basically asking him to take care of me. How does that look.
I just caught myself as I was typing that. I know this guy would do anything he could to help me. It's the humility I have to face. Sometimes I avoid the humility. I mean come on, who really likes it. Right? But it is what it is and Hell, this program is, in part, created through humility.
I'm sort of having an experience right now as I type this. Even sober I run from the humility. I have too much pride I think. I need to face the things that I define as humiliating and deal with them. I need to ask myself what have I done to make this humiliating? Shame based program right?
This guy truly is a great person and I know he is trustworthy. I'm just so full of me that I forgot about that.
I'm going to ask him tonight or maybe ponder it tonight and ask tomorrow.