Originally Posted by
SammyRose82707 
Hi,
So now it's Sept 23rd and I have been clean 28 days. I have great family support and the friends that care are extermly supportive also.
BUT why do I want that life I had back?
why do I still want to use so bad? Not only use but I just want them all to forget about me. But me back on the streets to rot. I just don't want to cause them anymore pain.
but this is enough rambling for my first post.
Hi Sammy,
It is the disease telling you you want that miserable life back...You probably don't have good self esteem because of your addictions so You don't feel worthy
of life...
Congrats on your twenty eight days of sobriety..All I can tell you is it does get better with each passing sober day...
So glad you found us, Keep posting....