Reubena, Afraid2suceed,
Thank you for replying; how are you doing?
I didn't make it again yesterday, but you all keep giving me strength to keep trying. I have so much to lose (not that I haven't lost a lot already), but I don't really want to lose more (my husband, my work, the respect of people I know, the respect of my (grown kids).
Thanks for the support,
alyce