Hello CC,
Hang in there buddy. You're doing the right thing by talkiing about it. Always let it out. I freaked out at the 4 months mark. I had a continous bombardment of using thoughts for a whole month or more. Here's what I did and it has worked so far:
I called my sponsor and told him (every single time I got a thought)
I prayed to God .
I went to a meeting and mentioned it.
I always tried to keep busy.
The best thing CC is that we need never walk alone again. Always ask for help like you're doing now.
Hang in there and have a great day!