CC,
Remember why you quit three months ago. You don't want to go back, right?
Find something to do. Call one of your sober friends.
I understand what you're going through. I'm currently sober (alcohol and benzos) for two weeks but still physically and emotionally weak from detoxing at home. It was the worst I've experienced but not as bad as what many people have been through. I've quit off and on several times over the last five years, but this time it's different. It must be if I want to live.
Please call a friend. Hugs to you!
Jane