Oh God. Im reading these posts as they come in...and I thank you all, but my God...I am desperately wanting someone to tell me to continue doing what Im doing, that it will be okay. Why cant things just be ok? Why cant my support and love be enough? Why cant I be enough? I keep wondering what Ive done wrong...have I driven him to relapse? And why is there no evidence left behind?
Does he think Im stupid? Because Ive let it go this far? Do I continue letting him think I am being fooled while keeping secrets of my own to try and save myself?
I cant stop crying now...I only hope he doesnt come home to find me this way.