The worst consequences of my drinking, was how I felt about myself and the daily shame. The consequences of my drinking were to alienate my husband and kids. I didn't lose my marriage or family, but it came close. I would say things I didn't mean and didn't remember and it's very hard for people to live with that. Luckily I didn't suffer in a material way.
I would try very hard to maintain the facade, as you are doing now and not let people know, but I was never good at doing that. I would lose control and fall into the downward spiral.
Alyce, what can you do differently today so that you don't drink?