Here's a hug for you((CHERO)). You deserve a huge chocolate icrecream with sprinkles and whip cream. Then, a nice dip in the jacuzzi. Jump into a fluffy bed with an oh so comfy pillow and paint your toes!
I think a lot of us here know the pain. Even if we no longer love that person, the pain of actually divorcing is difficult.
It takes time, but you will start to feel better and brighter.
Take care of your self daily.