thanks everyone!
i'm feeling a bit better today. i still don't feel like i've gotten the chance to grieve the loss i feel. i'm just putting it off for another day, i guess--when i have time to cry.
it dawned on me tonight that he doesn't even know it's over. he signed away his right to be there and then signed the papers prior to me appearing before the judge. he didn't know when it was going to happen. so, he doesn't know.
that just seems sad to me.
anyway....i survived today and suddenly the whole concept of baby steps seems so much more meaningful. i never wanted to be here but here i am. so, i can lay down and die or get up, brush myself off and keep going.
gosh, i almost sound optimistic. that feels a little scary.
but, thanks for keeping me going, you guys! i don't know where i'd be without your encouragement and truthful and brutally honest words over the past few months.
SR has been my lifeline!