Have a big (((( hug ))))), cuz you deserve it.
Yes, those words are full of old baggage, took me a good sponsor and a fourth step to get rid of the _emotional baggage_ I had attached to the words.
So until you are able to say the words, how about you try these on and see if they feel better : "I have left behind the coccoon of the caterpillar, and have set myself free like the butterfly I was always meant to be".
I learned those at an al-anon meet
Mike
