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Hey Boogie

I can relate to what you're going though and certain feeling about
AA. i went through a simular stage..I was really, really have a heck
of a time with life. So i went to church again. it was a church of
my childhood. it also felt like i was going home . it was a great
help to me. My minister help me a great deal also. i have one on one
bible study. The bible had to be translated to me in a different
way than I was percieving before. It was healing for me. Through
AA i was able to do that...establish a realtionship with god again.
My minister also passes on living spitiaul tools that i can apply to
my life. Tools and ideas that i havn't heard before. so it was also
a learning and growning experince as will. Yeah..I guess i was going
through growning pains.

But here's that kicker...my minister is an old, old timer of AA..lol
that had just moved into town and i had never seen in meetings
before.lol
God works in mysterious ways..lol
well when stuff like happens..it gets me thinking.
you know, not in wildest ideas did i ever imagine a minister being in AA.lol
And to have it happened like that..
that's why i belive god works through people.
it was a message being expressed to me.

She never forced me to do anything..she did suggest that I still should
try to attend AA, NA again..why ? becuase I'm an alcoholic/addict
and i need all the help i can get.

I learned a lot from AA that dosen't really have anything to do with god.
Reamining teach able..has no god mentioned in it.

I think once i think i have all the answers already, I'm not going change
or grow. it's kind of ironic that a drunk usually thinks he has all the answers
already and see his life going down the tubes and thinks he/she is in total
control...yet..their actions remains the same..they can't stopped drinking.lol

it's simple...if drinking f-up your life then stop.
I think most people can intellectaully figure it out and most people do comprehend it.
it's picking a drink after knowing that data, that makes makes it INSANE.lol