Mrsmurph I completely understand where you are coming from! The few days here and there that I am totally sober pretty much suck. On the weekends when I have to clean up the house I get so much more done when I have a few shots, crank the radio and just clean. If I'm not drinking I just don't feel like doing anything productive.....I would rather sit and watch a movie or something. Kinda weird but alcohol makes everything more fun for me...makes me want to get more done...until I have that one drink that makes it too much, then I'm done! I guess I'm like an alcoholic roller coaster or something like that.
kinda reminds me of a song by the 90s punk band NOFX...lyrics go something like "It's funny how, nothing seems much fun anymore to me now that I quit the drink.
'Cause soberness, it might be what I need but, it's certainly not how I wanna be"