I think you have put accross the way I have been feeling perfectly. Thankyou for sharing your thoughts, I couldnt have expressed it so well.
I have also quit smoking - at the same time i quit drinking 5 weeks ago. I totally hear what you say about the smoking at AA. Everybody was chatting and lighting up outside and I just couldnt join in so I left.
I also hear you over your families reaction to quitting. Up until I admitted the problem I was just a bit of a boozer. Now I cant have a phone call that doesnt begin with `you havent drunk have you` etc etc.
I am trying to follow the advice I have been getting on here and listening to the members with longer recovery periods. They are all advising that these feelings will pass eventually. I really do hope so.
Keep tough and keep sober. We can work through this together.