Seems I am always the bad guy ruining AH's good time. He "deserves" to drink all weekend long, he works hard all week (and drinks then too, but only a "few")!! (anyone else know where this is going? LOL)
So last night, on the eve of my daughter's 14th birthday, I told him I was done being the bad guy and was filing for divorce. I feel so good! I have to admit I do have some sadness in my heart that after 15+ years together this is where it ends, but mostly I am relieved that I have stood up for myself, FINALLY. I dont know how the road ahead looks, but it cant be much worse than the life I have been living with AH. This has been a long time coming and I just never wanted to admit that I couldnt "fix" him and make him want to be the husband and father he should be. So now it is up to me to make this right for me and my kids :-) Nobody knows about this yet, but we have some details to figure out and will be signing the papers next week if all goes according to plan. That is if he doesnt object to everything. Which, knowing him he will. But, either way a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can stand tall and know I have done the right thing and have done everything and anything I could to save this marriage. Unfortunately I was the only one trying.
