I am on the same place right now...but i am sober....anti depressants and alcohol mixed can cause unwanted death, if the anti-depressants have more than the regular chemicals.....any substance mixed with alcohol is dangerous..
is your hopelessness because of the alcohol abuse or related to some deeper issues..? if it's because of alcohol abuse, look around and see how many people here have found a light..if it's even deeper, then maybe you should see somebody..I am giving you the advice i should take..I am sure your life is worth....I have no doubt about it..