I think i need anti depressants. Everything seems to get harder and harder everyday. Just getting up is such a task anymore. Its really sad and pathetic. I feel lethargic. I have no energy to live and work or really do anything. Somehow i make it through the day though. Not always sober. But on days like today when i completely went out of my mind last night. Alcoholism is cruel. I didnt hurt anybody or myself. I just wander what will happen to me if it gets so bad that i cant fuction and live a normal life.