Hi Christina I too suffer from ptsd and chronic depression that I self medicated for years since I was 12 years old my father was very verbally,emotionally,and physically abusive not trusting was my middle name. As a man 40 years old now I am just begining to be able to trust and to have some healthy relationships my mariage still suffers of course I married an alcoholic and of course she knows all the buttons to push to recreate the anger and resentment but I am working on alternatives that have given me some peace I dont let the past dictate my life any longer and that is a huge step for me I am glad your here........hope you keep comming back.............Steve