Its all over means one of two things. Either I will slowly start drinking more drinks more often all the while telling myself that this time I have it under control until I finally admit that I don't. Or I will just tell myself that its to late I drank again and now I don't wanna stop and go head long back into it.
Worst part is that I know this will happen and yet everytime so far whether I have made it 6 months, 3 months, or even less there comes a time where that little voice in the back of my head starts to convince me that this time it will be different.
And every time I stop drinking again I tell myself I won't listen to that voice anymore.
All part of the "fun" of being me
One day I will get it right. Hopefully this time I will get it right. I am at a week right now and have no desire to be drunk. The memory of how it destroys my life is still fresh.