Aw duet, what you did was the best you knew to do at that time.
I had a terrible time with mine growning up and later I apologized to them individually. I told them that I really didn't know what to do sometimes. That I did the best I could and I am sorry for any pain it may have caused them.
Even they are both in jail, they love me. I know they do.
And, I have changed. They know and see this. I no longer live the codependant life I did 15 years ago.
It was hard, but without alanon, it would still be the same.