(((atalose))))) i am so sorrry for what you are going through with your self & what you are going through with your b.f. you do not deserve this, you deserve so much better. you have a place to stay so do not take his calls,let go or get dragged. it is up to you. he is not going to get any better & that life is not going to get any better. keep coming back here.we will take your hand & walk with you through all of this. with your health you NEED to take care of yourself & not have any worrys. my sister went thru that 3yrs. ago christmas & she is fine today but she took care of her. i am saying a prayer for you that you will have the strength to let go & let God.let us know how u r.hugs, hope