(((Trisha)))
The beautiful, intelligent, kind and caring girl that is your daughter is still in there... beneath the addiction.
Knowing that helped me understand that with my daughter, the addiction is not who she is... it is a condition she needed to work through.
You are a good mom. She is a good girl. The addiction is a nasty, evil thing.
She will come back to you when she figures out how to work through this.
My kid went to rehab 4 times. She relapsed after each and every one. She went to a recovery house and a sober house and was kicked out of both.
Today, she is clean and sober for over 2 years... and right up until the day she got clean, I was sad, depressed, angry and miserable.
I could not see the recovery coming... just as I did not see the addiction coming.
During the darkest days, I finally found Alanon... and those wonderful people have helped me walk through the bad times and given me tools to help me continue to grow and change how I relate to her ... and to others in my life.
I hope you can find some meetings in your area - they saved my life.
((hugs))