Brobo,
Keep at it, it will get better, that is a promise! The admission to ourselves that we are truly alcoholic and need help is a major hurdle.
Let me echo some of the previous posts, anonymity will take care of itself. I think one of the biggest shocks that I experienced in early sobriety was that after I had been sober a few months several of the folks in my life whom I had done such a "good job of hiding my drinking from," commented to me that they were HAPPY FOR ME AND HAD BEEN SO CONCERNED ABOUT MY EXCESSIVE DRINKING FOR SOME TIME!!
We do a much better job of fooling ourselves than we do others. I really wish you the best and do hope that you find AA and the people in those rooms. I remember the withdrawal and the sheer misery of the first few weeks. It does get better if you can just not drink today.
The bad news for me about AA was that I didn't have the dark secrets that I thought were only mine, and in fact I wasn't unique! It has been 8 years and I am still a little upset that I am not Unique, but I suspect I may get over it.
Welcome, sobriety has more wonders and surprises than you can even begin to imagine. It just gets better everyday. If it didn't why on earth would we do it!
Jon