Wascalli,
You´re so right. I keep doing this, mainly because I´m punishing myself for something that happened years ago, when I was using drugs and alcohol.
The awful thing is that some people can never forget who I was before I stopped and started in AA. One little mistake, and they ask around if I´ve started drinking again. No matter how long I have been sober, it´s always there and sometimes I let it hurt me, which I shouldn´t.
I feel a little better now. The energy is slowly coming back and I´m going swimming and then I´m taking a class in oriental dance.
I will take that other project and I refuse to look at one small mistake as a huge failure. It´s finished, I´m on to the next and I will do better.
Love and light,