No, I never did see a therapist.
One thing that stands out in my thinking is that I'd like to be cared for or appreciated just for being myself, not for what I can give to others or help them with. I have a long history of being there for people when they need something, but then I'm left alone when everyone is fine. I want to be included, but not needed all of the time if that makes sense. That's why I'm drawn to people who I think need me or I think I can help.
I'm worth more than just what I can give, but others don't see me like that.
I'm the responsible, go to person, but when I need that from others, no one's there except family. I just haven't found the right match for me, yet.