Lilya

Intro,

Thanks so much for your post. You´re absolutly right, I should not let this crush me.

The irony is that I have done similar projects 14 times, but this time was different. I had much more responsability and it was supposed to be a big step in a new direction. Hopefully it can still be that.

I feel more anxious than yesterday, because I have been told that negative press will follow. I do think that some people make mountains out of a molehill. The most important thing was that I did everything I did to contain the damage, but two or three people I thought were my friends used the opportunity to tell me what a failure I was. That hurt. It´s not the first time, but it´s difficult to forget.

I was definately not ready for this task and I knew it. I felt anxious and sometimes paralysed with irrational fear. Doubtless this made me more vulnerable and I didn´t have my usual self confidence to double-check, as I should have.

Love and light,






Love and light,