Thanks, everyone. When I reach out here, I always read something I needed to hear.
No contact really is best for my peace and serenity. I know that after the fact when the pain starts again. I need to get back to thinking what's best for me for the long term, not a quick fix. The reality is that I truly need to close the past for good.
I had a hard time this past week with things I couldn't control. Calling my ex and wanting to see him isn't going to change those things. I need to use the different tools I have forgotten in times of stress.
I can take care of myself and do it pretty well. Sometimes I just get tired and want someone else to do it for me, but I know I'm the one that can do it best.
I'm not a victim. I chose to get out of a bad situation and I need to remember why I am where I am today.
Another new start! At least I'm getting lots of practice.
