How do you let the love of your life go?
You do it by realizing that you love
your life more than you love the love of your life.
I think the problem we have, when we love an alcoholic, is that we keep thinking about this:
We had an awesome relationship when it was good. We could talk with each other about anything for hours on end. He is my love of my life.
when the only thing we really have left is the rest. The crap, the drinking, the lies, the blatant and unrepentant selfishness. The disease.
Letting go of the dream that one day, it'll all be like it used to -- that's a hard part. And one I'm still struggling with.
Take care of yourself. Maybe he'll come to his senses, sober up and come back. Maybe he won't. You're worth better than sitting around waiting to see which one it is. (((lisab)))