Feeling sad
Just got off the phone with a nice gentleman who wants to take me out to lunch and is obviously looking for more than friendship, and while I enjoyed talking to him I find myself sitting here feeling terribly sad and terribly lonely because he's not Richard and he never will be.
Every time I think I'm moving forward and feeling happy again, the pain, the loss, the senselessness, and the loneliness seem to creep back. I wish I could block these feelings out, but they keep resurfacing again and again.