I remember lost weekends. Ummmm, I mean I don't remember them. I do remember waking up, going to the liquor store in the AM for my morning pick me up, and looking at the newspapers on the rack to verify what day it was. *whew*, it is Sunday ...
Based on your post, it sounds as if AA would be a good fit for you. It is for me. I've got about 10 months now. I was a daily/hourly drinker that would go into withdraw if I didn't have booze in my system, that lost nearly everything. Now I have reliable transportation (with a license), a good paying job, and the love of my two teenage daughters. (1 lives with me, the other lives 3 doors down).
It works, it really does.