I feel like a kid most of the time. it's not a bad thing.
I can actaully communicate wtih my children. it's also
as if i got a chance to live a childhood i never had.
A big diffence is, i respect and honor my children as human beings
and didn't pass on that turama of a childhood to my children.
The only different is , the adult part of me just had to makesure
my children have a loving , safe, environment to live.
it might seem wierd at times to the neighbors or my gf, but I wasn't
being dysfuntioning anymore. My two step duaghter at a very
young age tuaght me so, so much. They were pure and
wasn't as sick as I was...I had to be very careful. Just becuase
I've been on this planet longer than they did, didn't mean i wasn't
sick.
My children all love me very much. We have a relationship.
There's not that walking on eggshells. When my step son comes
to me and talk to me in his teenage years about his problems
and open up to me and talk about anything....that's a big, big change.
Yes, it might seem strange at times when he calls me "dude"..
Oh..he knows I'm his dad. it's can get out of hand sometime
becuase i goof around like a kid, Drives my GF sometimes.
But i know I'm the parent becuase he asked me for money..lol
He is a young man now, we hug each other everytime when we meet,
thats a big, big change. While he might have problems growing up
or just growing into a man..he differently dosn't have that funk that i have.
I belive I'm more mature than most grown ups. becuase I allow myself
to be childish. It was healing for me and I didn't passed on the insanity.
if the world thinks I'm crazy or not growning up..oh well.
I don't wanna grow up. Grown up get sent bills..lol