New Here . . . giving this another shot
I'm giving sobriety another shot. Hell. I'm giving LIFE another shot.
I started drinking heavily about 5 years ago, and now I drink far more every night that I care to admit, I'm 80 pounds overweight, I'm depressed, I eat myself out of house and home, and I spend all of my money on alcohol and take out food. I used to be the life of the party and I'm DETERMINED to be that girl again!!
Tonight will only be night number 2 without a drink. Last night wasn't too bad, but I also got home from work late so all I really had time to do was eat and go to bed anyway.
But tonight is hard. Tonight I sit here, hating my life, wanting more than anything to get in my car and go buy some alcohol (I emptied my apartment of the stuff so I wouldn't be tempted, but I still am). RRRRR! I'm just so pissed off at myself that I let myself go. I used to be thin, hot, and fun. Now I have no drive in life, I'm depressed, overweight, and never go out. PATHETIC!!
So yeah, I'm babbling. But either way I'm very happy to have found this forum. So thank you for being here!!