Maya, there are lots of cute helpful sayings you hear at meetings and from your sponsor and so forth. One of them amounts to, "We wrecked your drinking", which is to say that drinking isn't the same again after you've got a good snoutful of AA.
You said, "Sorry this may seem like nothing to you but for me its like massive lights coming on and hints at 'something' going on.." YES YES YES !! It means everything to me and no doubt to many others who are recovering via AA. I hope it's the miracle starting.
Blessings from the Snowgoose.