Hi all.
Yes, I am going to AA. I phoned their helpline in a this weekend and they gave me details of local meetings in my area. Found some more on their website too.
What I need to be clear about in my mind is that I am doing this for me and not just to prove that I `really am serious this time` to my family. From what I understand AA can be of enormous help and support but only if the individual really wants to be helped. I am planning to go to a meeting on Wednesday where I guess I need to cover these feelings. All I know is that life currently is appalling. I drink to extremes four or five evenings each week. Sometimes all day at the weekends. Many evenings now end in blackouts. Often lately I have managed to get no further than the bar at my train station. I have a two year old son who never sees me and a wife who is having therapy herself to cope with the emotional trauma I am causing. It simply has to stop. Period.