((wking2change))
Is he? Isn't he? No matter what you do, short of catching him in the act, you will not know for sure. Snooping, watching, checking up, following, it all leads to the same thing, you being upset, frustrated, angry, suspisious and eventually obsessed with his life, not your own.
I do understand the desire to know. I always wanted to know for sure, just to justify and validate what I was feeling in my gut. I would convince myself that if I could just find the proof, then I would do _______. It drove me crazy.
When I switched to attention to myself, decided what my bounderies were, and let go of what he may or may not be doing, I found that I actually had time for me. Time that I used to figure out what made me happy beyond him. Time to make plans for what I wanted to do that made me laugh and feel a little bit of happiness in my life again.
Maybe he's just switching his addiction to sex, with the help of viagra. In other words replacing his DOC.
Either way, what is best for you and your life?
Sending lots of Hugs and Prayers
B