Originally Posted by
dollydo 
Heather,
The truth is, until he loves himself first, stays clean for life, he is not capable of truly loving anyone else. The same applies to you, until you love yourself first, and take care of yourself, you are not capable of truly loving him.
What you are expressing is obsession not love.
I have to agree with Dolly! Now is the time to work on you, your self esteem, your self worth. Obsessing over 'him' keeps you from working on you.
You are a good person with a good heart and lots of compassion. It is okay to use that compassion on yourself. Recovery is HARD WORK, but oh so worth it!!!!
Have you checked out Naranon, or Alanon (usually more readily available with more meetings) or looked into some private therapy? Any or all can be a GREAT HELP in working on you.
Keep posting (((((Heather))))), we do care.
Love and hugs,