At the moment I am just so overwhelmed and unsure of how to take one step forward. I have nothing left inside of me.
My recovery began at a moment like this. I was exhausted, sick, tired and knew I could not live like that one more day. I didn't. I surrendered. I just hit my knees and gave it all to God and then hit the first meeting I could find. I've never looked back.
The old saying "it is always darkest before the dawn" rings true for us too. I could not let go until I was totally exhausted and unable to hold on any more.
You'll be okay. Start focusing on you. Go to a meeting, go out for dinner with a friend, take long walks, bury yourself in a book, grab some kids and take them on a picnic, visit a senior and take some fresh flowers...anything that will get you out of yourself. I promise you will feel better when you do.
Hugs