You are not alone!
I love this board and everyone on it! I'm here to stay as long as I have internet connection LOL. (finances are a bit scary lately)
Please keep sharing. It helps us all.
I didn't go to the 2nd meeting tonight close to me and I'm ok with not going this week. I would like to go to at least 2 meetings a week. One location has a focus on the 12 step and one location seems to be discussion. I think there would be so much to be gained from both formats. But one step at a time. This board is a lifesaver too.
I'm still processing my Monday meeting. I'm going to keep myself strong for next Monday and take my next step attending the 2nd location when I feel comfortable. I don't know everyone's names I met yet. It is amazing that one meeting has brought me to so many realizations about myself every day since.
I know this is going to work for me already. I also realize it won't be instant recovery overnight. I have the rest of my life though heh?