like me, you have been affected by someone's addiction. There are people in my life that have a disease - my understanding is that I suffer from that disease too.
I haven't always made the best decisions concerning what was healthy for me, but rather than beat myself up about it, I can trust in my HP; knowing that I do not have the power to mess up my HP's plan for my life. If I make a decision - my HP can use it for me to learn something I need to learn, to heal something in me that needs to be healed or to further my recovery in a way that I never would have thought of.
Drained, you have to walk your path - it's YOUR path, seek your HP's guidance, please take good care of YOU.
Wishing you Serenity & Joy,
Rita