To me painkillers killed alot of the pain I had mentally in my life, Im a child of abuse and my cousin who was a big role model in my life killed himself at aged 24.
The cutting started and the painkillers helped me not cut. I didnt kno what addiction to kick first. And when I slit both my wrists in my doctors office and sat down in front of my therapist saying "its all over" they threw me in rehab so fast my head spun.
But in order to kick the cutting I took more drugs. Now I say I take 10 pills a day and I use the cold water method to take the pure drug with out the aspirin.
Im a mess as I said in the other thread I scared Ill cut again.