Hey Big Sis!!!--hope all is well--Im crawling out of a relapse--its tough but Im starting to see the light.I understand EVERYTHING you speak of!!!!.Im a little "chatted out" at the moment(been on here for TWO DAYS!) and gotta go to work.Check out the thread I started 2 days ago called I cant do AA anymore either.
Sounds like you can probably relate.My name is ShawMac.God Bless