today is day one of my recovery.
i have been broken up with my x ab since sunday .. but i havent been able to stop trying to text him and talk to him..
today i consider my day one of totally breaking ties and not talkin to him at all.. i am goin to put a red x in my calander each day i make it without reaching out ot him. a friend recommended it to me and i belive that writting th at x is a form of power againts the addictive cycle.
i know better than that when it comes to him.. he have to come to the end of his self by hisself and i know i didnt cause it cant cure it cant change him. so im goin to try throught the lonely nights and the tears to totally break ties.
im breaking the head game he says im so famous for. but i will keep praying for him.
Jesus knows were he is and what he is doing always and Jesus is the only one who knows how to help him..
so i will pray that God brings him to the end of himself on his knees in tears crying out for forgivenss and change..
and now i will focous on me. im a princess i am a child of a king and now I WILL START ACTING LIKE IT