You said that you have support from people, so use it. Don't beat yourself up. I think the guilt should remind you how you felt drinking. By no means don't dwell on it.
Take a deep breathe & please go forward. Use resources.
I went to my first meeting yesterday. I was scared at first. Could not find the room in this big empty church. Then this man came over to me out of nowhere and shook my hand. Introduced himself & I felt an instant calmness. He said that somebody had to show him where the room was too. He has been sober for 4 months. I felt no pressure at all, only sincere support. It lasted an hour & I will be going to other meetings. I ended up talking to a guy who had 19 years sober, in the parking lot, for about 30 minutes afterwards. Now I did not think that would have happened on my first meeting.
He said a couple things that really stuck in my head.
Later, I read some literature that I got & it really called to me.
I would say give a meeting a chance.
I hear everybody say to go, & yesterday I got a little clarity on why.
H U G S & L O V E ! -----newbie