Hey Barb,
Each time I walk into a meeting, I search for a woman who raises her hand when they ask "who has many years of recovery" and I scope her out during the meeting and think, well, I'll ask her to sponsor me. Then, and holy cow I'm being honest here, maybe she shares and I find some little thing that she says or does or something and I discount her. Tuesday, the man that I greatly admire who I wanted to ask to sponsor me wasn't there! Jeez, I just feel doomed.