Hi Rita, and welcome. I went through benzo withdrawal about 3 years ago. I did it alone, but I wouldn't recommend anyone do that.
I suggest you see your doctor and be honest about your usage.
I understand that physical symptoms you are having - they are absolute hell.
My understanding is that this can be very dangerous.
Please get some help, and let us know how it goes. I hope you continue to post and work towards getting some clean time again.
My best to you.
Rowan