I did the same thing 4 months ago. I had special locks put on the house because I was scared he would returnin a drunken rage. As like your situation my AH never hit us but we were very frightened of his behavior when he was drinking,it just got worse and worse very quickly. Hang in there. He is now living in a half way house for 6 months we speak by phone sometimes. H e is doing well but I WILL NOT terminate the pfa order. I pray your husband gets some help and you find peace in your life. For the first time in my life I am figuring out who I am and it feels pretty good. Good luck and take care of you and your children.