Really hard for me to balance in my personal life, but at work i use it to
my advantage. I use to be a purchaing manager for electronics.
Things do change on a dime and it's worst than playing the stock market.
And some of the components has 12-16 weeks lead time and i'm
always anticipating..it's really chaoctic too. I operated will in that enviorment
for some reason.
Sometimes, just to show who's really in control..even if i did plan will
and order parts 3-4 months before hands. Even when I exhusted all
of my resourse..the parts don't get to the plant on time and the production
line shuts down and it's like a chain reaction..our customs, thier customs
and thier custom get mad. You know... there wasn't enough PS3 or the
Iphone to go around for everyone.
I've gone in the bath room many, many time just to pray when things
just gets out of control and for some reason the pasrts shows up
on our dock the next morning or shortly after, or I a get a call for
sale people telling i wound get them the next day...this is after they
told me...the truck crashed, the boat sunk or UPS/Fed-X ship my
box around the world again..
i still struggle with balance today...yeap, I'll either gose full blast or
not at all. One of the a traits of a ACOC.
Overachiving or underachiving.
I've been awear of it and tried to descipline myself,
but for stupid reason. this chareacter defect hasn't been removed
through my own will.. So all i can do now is pray about it.